Can I Get An Amen?

On #TBT, I posted this picture on Instagram and Facebook with the following caption:

If you had told 2011 Kevin that in 5 years he'd be wearing skinny jeans and actually be kind of hot? He would've laughed at you. I have a few choice words for 2011 Kevin. But instead I'm gonna tell him I'm proud of him for getting his head out of his hindquarters. That he's nowhere near perfect, but he's making strides every day. That in the long run, the demons he's facing in 2011 are making mountains out of mole hills. That he's still going to have ups and downs, but overall? Life is pretty dang great. #LoveYourself#SorryForTheLongPost #ButAlsoImNot#ProgressPic #ThrowbackThursday #TBT#UseALLTheHashtags

Those demons that I mentioned? Have been following me for years. Demons who wouldn't allow me to live my life without fear. Fear of abandonment, of not being worthy of love. The fear of being disowned by my family, dismissed by my friends, and being forgotten by God. They also filled me with SO much anger and self hatred. For years I've lived my life wallowing in my own self loathing.

I'm not going to let the demons win. I refuse. It's time for me to love myself. I can only do that by being honest and open in all aspects of my life. RuPaul, in a way(?); I have you to thank for this new outlook.

In the interest of being honest, I have decided to stop hiding a part of myself. Some of you may find this surprising, others will just say "Uh...duh?". But I don't identify as straight. I'm pansexual. If you're not familiar with the term, basically I'm attracted to people regardless of their gender. I've always been more attracted to ones personality first.

Those fears I had? Have been forgotten. Why, you ask? My family knows and is amazingly supportive. My friends who know have shown me nothing but unconditional love. And God is showing Himself to me in increasingly beautiful ways. I am clinging to Him as I never have before, and it's SO. GREAT!

If you're reading this, you can proceed one of two ways: Stay or go. Keep following my adventures and be supportive, or quietly remove yourself from my life. If you choose the former, awesome! Welcome! And I'm excited to be able to share more with you! If you choose the latter? No hard feelings. You have your reasons, who am I to judge?

The important thing is: I'm finally beginning to love myself. Genuinely love myself. And if you can't love yourself? How in the hell you gonna love somebody else? Can I get an "Amen" up in here?

Oops...

Hey guys! Sorry I've been M.I.A. lately. I've been doing stuff! And things!

First off: I made my Phoenix theatrical debut in an AMAZING musical called Now. Here. This., and had a BLAST! I've missed being on stage, and can't wait to get back to it!

Second, I've started working on an EP with my good friend Colton Berry! This one is going to be all covers, but we're working on some originals too, so that'll be cool. I'm going to make an effort to write more...but we all know how well that typically works out. haha

Well, um...bye!

Good Life

"Sometimes there's airplanes I can't jump out
Sometimes there's bullshit that don't work now
We all got our stories but please tell me-e-e-e
What there is to complain about" - OneRepublic

I've discovered the meaning of life. Live it for yourself. Don't let the negative things people say derail your bliss. Your passion. Do you. That's it. That's all of it. This is a short post, but at least it's a post! :) 

A Long December/Auld Lang Syne

A long December and there's reason to believe/Maybe this  year will be better than the last

Should auld acquaintance be forgot/and never brought to mind
Should auld acquaintance be forgot/for auld lang syne

Every December 31st, I listen to Counting Crows' Long December. Every January 1st, I listen to Auld Lang Syne by Mairi Campbell and Dave Francis. These songs help me reflect on the last year. The good, the bad, the ugly. This year was no exception. 2015 was filled with ups and downs, as every year is. 

I tightened my inner circle and my waist line. I reconnected with an old friend, made new friends, attended SO! MANY! WEDDINGS!, and went to Mexico. 

Owning November had a pretty good year, gigging almost monthly. We booked our first gig for 2016 in October of 2015! Not too shabby.

And, probably the most exciting thing: I got back in to theatre. I auditioned for a Miscast Cabaret, and was cast. Shortly thereafter, I auditioned for A/C Theatre Company's production of Now. Here. This. After nervously auditioning, and almost throwing up during callbacks (Again, due to nerves), I was cast in that production as well! This is the first show I've done since 2001, and couldn't be more excited to be a part of this company's inaugural season, and the Arizona premiere of this show!

All I really ask of 2016 is that it bring continued health and happiness. And for you, I hope it brings the same.